Happy

I am living my life. I am thinking of myself. I'm a nicer person. I am closer to my family. I am less irritable. I am unique. I am special. I can smile. I am moving on. I can love. Others can love me. I am happy. Nothing can stop me now (:

Back to normal.........if anything in my life is ever REALLY normal.

My school is cool. One of the coolest things about it is that we have a thing called Winterum. Winterum is a three week intensive study doing whatever you want. We do this right after Christmas break. This year I did a physical activity and dance winterum. I went to school at the normal time but instead of doing my regular classes I went and worked out for two hours, doing Zumba, Pilates, and Ti Boe. After we finished with that we would work on ballroom or hip hop. I had never done hip hop and it was crazy! I'm not what you would call an amazing hip hop dancer but I enjoyed myself. On four of the days we did ballroom. Everyone in the class was a first timer (every one except for Kyli and I) and we only had four boys. That made things difficult. Sadly our dance teacher was also super sick. On a brighter side, that made it so Kyli and I could try our hand at teaching. Mrs. Mullish would teach some of the basic stuff and then demonstrate with one of us, and then we got to go around fixing everyone. I loved it! However as a result I learned to really dislike cheerleaders. They never participated and were always rude. But I came away with switching all my body fat for muscle. I want it to stay that way.
However as fun as Winterum was things had to go back to normal. I started up on my regular classes this Monday. I got some new classes. I kept both my AP English classes and Seminary, but I picked up Geology, Chamber Choir, Geography, and Computer Tec. AND I'M A TA!!! I'm happy with everything except Geography, which I am only taking because I'm required to have it in order to graduate. It's full of Freshman ):
On top of everything going back to normal, dearest Gregory decided to pick up Bronchitis over Winterum. It didn't get really bad until Sunday, so he didn't find out what was wrong with him until Monday and he was gone from school all week long. ): I'm kind of surprised that I didn't pick up on the disease myself. But he got back today and it pretty much better (: After a long week I'm going to the school basketball game and dance tonight with him, Kyli and, Micheal. And then tomorrow my best friend from first grade is flying in today so we're having lunch tomorrow!!! Well until next time!

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So I'll admit that I'm lucky to have my more than just a friend Gregory. I love him so much, and right now he's being really cute. Everyone has heard this song. Every girl wants her guy to sing it to her, but I'm lucky enough that I have a guy that doesn't just sing the song for me, he lives the song for me. He heard this song and told me he was making a point of following it, and he has. Every night I get a text,if I don't see him in person that day, telling me that he loves me and that I'm beautiful. It doesn't get much better than that. I can't tell you how much it means to me. Love you Gregory!

Signs of a Broken Heart

I don't think I mentioned that I enjoy writing, however I have never found poetry to be my forte.  However, one of my writing friends thought this was a good concept so I thought I would share.  And yes, I wrote this going off of personal experience.

Signs of a Broken Heart
Consider what it feels like to exercise too hard for too long.
That’s about what it feels like to have a broken heart
You keeps running.  You know it hurts
but you don’t know how bad it is until you’re done
You lay down.  You don’t want to get back up again
Everything in your body pulses and throbs
You can’t seem to get a good breath in
You know walking around will help
but your mind just doesn’t want to play logic
When you finally do get up you get stiff
The pain lingers for days
The next time you go to exercise you look at it with dread
But you decide that the endorphins and thrill you get from it is worth the pain
because as time passes the pain becomes a distant memory
And now that you brain will play logic you know that someday
Someday you will be able to do the exercise and not go through the pain.

My Brain Needs a Rest

The past few weeks have been good and bad and ugly.
It's been a long couple of weeks.  You remember that I said I was a actriss of ten years?  Well I had the chance to audition for The Sound of Music.  The only problem was that I would have to leave my youth theater director of ten years for it.  It wasn't an easy decition but I  decided to do it.  Lori, my director, tried to change my mind, and I almost did. Lori fought dirty.  She managed to tell me that she needed me because I was here best singer and that the thought of me leaving made her sick to her stomach.  I need you, you're good at something, and your causing me pain.  Those three things are at least enough to make me consider changing my mind, but in the end I stuck to the orriginal decition. I auditioned for Sound of Music on Tuesday and am currently sitting in the school computer lab waiting for the cast list to be posted!!!!!!!!  I wish he would hurry it up. 
To top it off, It's finals week.  My brain has exploded, but I'm done and I'm alive, and I think I did pretty well.........at least I hope I did. 

My Life In a Nut Shell

  My name is Amanda.  I'm eighteen and a senior in high school.  As we all know high school is one crazy ride...my story is no exception. In the past three and a half years I've fallen in love, had my heart broken (my love life is one crazy ride in itself), and changed myself into a person that my before high school self would know, let alone expect. 
I have a mom and a dad that, against the statistics of this world, are still married.  I am the oldest of four kids, one brother (15), and two sisters (10 and 2). 
I have a good and interesting group of freinds.  Kyli, my best girlfriend, Gregory, my slightly more than friend, Kadee, the person I can always depend on, and Jared, my shrink. (:  I'm a friendly person.  I like and get along with almost everyone but these are the people that I am with all the time.  Most of us, the only exception is Kadee, goes to the same charter school.  Kadee is my best friend in my ward. 
I'm LDS and I don't know what I'd do without it.
I've spent the past ten years in musical theater.  I'm a natural actress.  Sometimes it's good to escape into somebody else's world, but most of all I love to dance.  My family think I'm stupid to pursue something like dance, but something sparked in me when I started ballroom two years ago and I'm not giving up on it.
I'm red headed, blue eyed, and short, and I have the personality to match it.  You can see me coming from miles away.  And I like that about myself.  I'm comfortable in my own skin.
That's my life in a nut shell.  Hope you enjoy the blog.